When Krista found me, I felt like I was a mess. I was living with an abusive alcoholic. My mother was abusive to me growing up. I was bullied. Despite all of this, I am an optimistic person. Usually. But in my current situation I was feeling so full of rage, only with him, but it felt awful. I had become bitter and irritable. I had been reading and reading! I found lots of tools that did help, but I still felt helpless. I also have an addiction to food and Pepsi.
After just 2 sessions with Krista, words can't describe how I feel! We didn't even address weight or food addiction! I felt those were lower on the priority list. However, I am almost completely off Pepsi, WITH EASE!!! I can't even tell my struggle with this! I'm making better food choices, WITH EASE!!! Weight is falling off! I lost 6 lbs. in 2 weeks!!! I'm not blowing my top with my alcoholic! Trust, I have been repeatedly provoked! I am now rational enough to know what I need to do, and how to do it in a loving and understanding way. I have already improved my relationship with my children! I may be in the running for a new position at work! I am making real and impactful friendship connections! I am winning for the first time in my life! I have found my simple joy again, and it feels so GOOD! I haven't just found my spark, I have ignited my FIRE! I couldn't be more grateful!
UPDATE: Just over two years ago I was a totally different person. I was in the depths of despair. I was having suicidal thoughts. I had zero self worth. I was living in a deadly and toxic environment for over 14 years, which consisted of every kind of abuse. Krista and I reconnected for the first time since high school. I had already been working with a counselor and attending Al Anon. Since coaching with her my life has truly altered. I renewed my sense of worth and restored self love. At that time miracles happened and I was able to flee that awful relationship. My life is far from perfect now but I’m in a constant state of growth and evolution. I gained so many tools in my time working with Krista, which I will mention was just 5 sessions of an hour each time over the phone states away from each other. Her work continues to move in me. I’ve lost nearly 50 pounds since then due to releasing all the mental garbage I had collected in my entire life. Recently I began a relationship and I thought things were perfect. But one issue came up and it was something that I just couldn’t work with. In the past I would have done anything to keep a connection this intense. I would have clung on in fear of being alone. I would have done things that made me uncomfortable just to keep the relationship. I would have allowed a destructive pattern to send me into a horrible depression. I would have seen it as a total failure and rejection and reversed everything I had worked for. I would have regained all the weight I had lost. I had repeated this toxic pattern many times and I know what the old version of myself would have done. But thanks to the tools I gained I was able to look at this from a clear point of view. I had to let go of a beautiful relationship because it wasn’t working for me and the greater good of my sense of self worth. I stand tall with gratitude for everything I gained from this relationship. I won’t deny this was painful. I won’t deny playing the victim role for a moment. But I didn’t unpack and move into that state of mind. I acknowledged my pain and loss and now I can move forward with intention and love and to continue my journey as a stronger woman. I will not reverse everything I have worked for. I’m truly blessed to know Krista and I am so thankful for my journey!